I'm feeling a deep sisyphean melancholy today. These moods are always the hardest for me. They permeate every atom of my being and are persistent beyond reason. I have suffered chronic depression for a fairly large chunk of my life. I was different in ways imperceptible to myself which caused me to be the target …
The Beginnings of a Fence
This is going to be a short post tonight because I’m tired and sore. However, I still wanted to keep my promise to myself to try and write at least a little bit every day. When Ashe and I moved into this house back in April, one of our first priorities for the garden was …
Creatively Adrift
I am struggling right now. It's not a new struggle - this is one that I've had for a long time (and one I know that I know many other people relate to). I want to learn to do too many goddamn things and it paralyzes me from doing absolutely anything. It doesn't help that …
Yet Another New Chapter
Wow, it has been a minute since I last wrote anything. I won't apologize for it - my life has been fairly hectic over the last year involving a divorce and moving to a new state in the middle whatever hellscape our current global condition is - but it is notable. I'm going to try …
A small piece of the picture
I finally managed to deactivate my Facebook account last week. I considered deleting my Facebook account entirely because I know I should, but I just couldn’t bring myself to yet. Maybe later. Anyone who is here following me from Facebook, thank you. I appreciate that you’ve found me interesting enough to invest in reading my …
Facebook outage joy
Facebook had an unprecedented multiple hour outage on Monday which impacted the entire Facebook ecosystem, including Instagram and WhatsApp. Like many people, I refreshed the Facebook page dozens of times during that period to see if Facebook had come back up. Each time that I refreshed the page and it didn't resolve, I felt this …
Happy Labor Day
Ashe and I just finished up a nice long weekend as I had the day off for Labor Day. I'm still recovering from a minor elective surgery that I had a little over a week ago, so I wasn't able to do all of the things that I would liked to have done, but we …
I’m not dead
Hey everyone! I'm not dead. That might seem like a weird way to start out a blog post (and it probably is) but this is 2021 in America during the COVID pandemic where things are now much worse than they were last year at this time. Hospitals are full again despite so many people being …
Grieving a loss of personal engagement
My brain feels pretty spacey this morning. It is the second day of my company's virtual all-hands for July and I am struggling to not be adrift as my coworkers give presentations on topics that are important for our business. These topics are vital to understand as the industry that I'm working in is constantly …
Keeping us separated
I noticed that Facebook’s feed seems to have been updated yet again. I’m starting to see a lot more posts which are not sponsored but are not from my friends or from any of the pages or groups that I follow. Just idle recommendations that take the place of the content that I came to …